Dear LORD:
Help me to become fully transformed into your image from glory to glory, reflecting fully the face of your son. Amen!
MDDL:
Your MEQ tonight was what you read to the group just now. That was very touching. I loved the part about our new beginning.
What I can do to bring about forgiveness and healing in our relationship is to forgive myself, to become fully Present in the moment, and to allow the transformation of my soul to complete itself.
I know that I have made little bitty baby steps so far in this process. But I feel the momentum building. The process of practicing yoga, being observant of my thoughts, watching my reactions and learning from them, and allowing the Watcher to temper those reactions, will eventually result in a complete healing in our relationship which I believe is yet to be fully realized.
As you said yesterday: “I’ll take care of me for you if you’ll take care of you for me.” By doing the things I describe above, I become fully human, perhaps for the first time in my whole life. This enables me to forgive myself, heal, and in the process to fully love you. You deserve no less.
The way I feel about this is very hopeful and optimistic. Like you said, a new beginning has begun. As I wrote to you in the poem I wrote today:
It Begins
I Am begins with a breath
continues with a glance
finishes with a sound
and returns again
Cycles upon cycles
weather of the soul
pouring forth into stillness
a torrent of thoughts
drenched with suchness
What began in obscurity
ends in clarity
the deep and powerful presence of life
I feel the clarity coming. I feel that deep and powerful presence of my own life within me. I feel that within you as well. The flow between us is very strong. We are returning to the source of that which Is, for there and there alone do we find ourselves. It is in that place as well that we see the face of God.
My optimistic and hopeful feeling is very, very strong, definitely a 10. It is like the feeling of a new morning on a clear spring day after the winter has just left and life is returning. It is also like seeing the life of a child blossom and grow, watching him or her learn to walk, gaining new strength and new abilities each day. The color is brilliant blue of a distant clear spring sky, capped over with the light of a new sun.
In terms of a shared memory it would be like when we got the Alaska job after my period of unemployment when we were living in the Dallas area, and we finally had an income sufficient to sustain our family. We had hope again. I had once again earned my self respect, as well as yours.
I will close now. I am completely fried, toasted, boiled, poached, broiled, and steamed. Pretty much cooked in other words. I hope they ring the bell soon. I want to come up to the room and be with you.
See you soon.
Love,
Me
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