Dear LORD:
Thank you, thank you, thank you, for our miracle today. Bless you! Praise you! Hallelujah!
Dearest Ruth:
Your MEQ today was telling me the private things you shared with me at dinner, including the situation with your grandmother's medication (which you had actually never shared with another living soul). I felt very special to be given the privilege of knowing another side of you.
The way I feel about our miracle is thrilled, which is subdued slightly by a wait-and-see feeling about our daughter. On the one hand, I was thrilled with the way she responded to me during our conversation this morning. It was amazing. I actually expected her to push back strongly, and to have to get to the point of huge histrionics, packing her up, taking her to Sam's and Jon's apartment, etc. Of course, none of that happened.
At the same time, my level of enthusiasm is muted by realism. I am no fool. I understand thoroughly how entrenched drugs can be in young peoples' lives. I expect to have further issues with our daughter, and will be pleasantly surprised if this is the end of it. I am hopeful, but still watchful.
I told her if she uses drugs we will know. I told her that her mother is an amazing lie detector and she always finds out. We will see.
My strongest feeling is one of being thrilled. It is similar to the feeling of riding a very fun rollercoaster. The Incredible Hulk at Universal Studios / Florida comes to mind. It is an enormous, modern, steel coaster with a 2-stage linear motor. You go from 0 to 60 mph in less than a second. You do multiple loops, barrel rolls and the like. I love that coaster! This feeling is similar. The ride today was wild, to say the least. I love it!
The color would be like the bright white pop of an electronic flash bulb. Like the light going off in your head.
In terms of a shared memory, it would be like finding out that we had hundreds of thousands of dollars in tax refunds coming back to us. That felt like we had won the lottery.
For now, I think what happened today is wonderful. Let's take it one day at a time. I will be watching our daughter closely and expect to have more conversations.
I love you with an undying love.
Love,
Me
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
HDIFA advanced planning for special occasions or events? DYFF
Dear LORD:
Thank you that my love is home. I missed her. I got very, very lonely for her. She is very special to me.
MDDL:
Your MEQ today was the wonderful way you greeted me with an apology and a cup of tea this morning. Thank you very much for that!
The way I feel about advanced planning for special occasions is positive and hopeful. I think that advanced planning for things like birthdays, vacations, and the like is very, very important. We need to have the financial resources in place in order to avoid negative spending. We can avoid impulse purchasing that way too. We need to know what we are going to do and how much it is going to cost. This will save us lots of wear and tear on our relationship.
A balance is called for, though. We should have the flexibility to do spontaneous things on occasion as well. That is what adds zest and fun to our relationship. So we should not be too rigid about this, but we should be prudent and thoughtful. Mindfulness in other words.
My positive and hopeful feeling is pretty strong, about a 6. It is like the feeling that I had when we moved into this house, and left behind the ghosts and memories of the Shady Lawn house. Like we are getting a new start. Kind of like the girl on Forest Gump who liked New Year's Day.
Color-wise, it is a bright, sunny red, kind of like the color of your car.
I will post now. I have to leave soon.
Love,
Me
Thank you that my love is home. I missed her. I got very, very lonely for her. She is very special to me.
MDDL:
Your MEQ today was the wonderful way you greeted me with an apology and a cup of tea this morning. Thank you very much for that!
The way I feel about advanced planning for special occasions is positive and hopeful. I think that advanced planning for things like birthdays, vacations, and the like is very, very important. We need to have the financial resources in place in order to avoid negative spending. We can avoid impulse purchasing that way too. We need to know what we are going to do and how much it is going to cost. This will save us lots of wear and tear on our relationship.
A balance is called for, though. We should have the flexibility to do spontaneous things on occasion as well. That is what adds zest and fun to our relationship. So we should not be too rigid about this, but we should be prudent and thoughtful. Mindfulness in other words.
My positive and hopeful feeling is pretty strong, about a 6. It is like the feeling that I had when we moved into this house, and left behind the ghosts and memories of the Shady Lawn house. Like we are getting a new start. Kind of like the girl on Forest Gump who liked New Year's Day.
Color-wise, it is a bright, sunny red, kind of like the color of your car.
I will post now. I have to leave soon.
Love,
Me
Thursday, January 15, 2009
What do you love about our relationship? DYFF.
Dear LORD:
Be with my sweetheart and me as we communicate together. How I love her!
MDDL:
Your MEQ today was the way you calmed me down from being frustrated by Gretchen in the glasses store. You were perfect. You listened to my grousing for a good long while, and then when I became pedantic, you shut me up. I was able to go on because of your sensitivity. I love you!
The thing I most love about our relationship is the companionship of just being with you. I find it very relaxing, soothing, and satisfying to simply be in your presence. Like we were today when we were on our way to the mall. Or tonight when we were sitting in the family room together.
My favorite place to be is in the car with you, going somewhere. I love holding your hand. I love the feel of your skin against mine. I love to hear and feel your breath. I like to look over and see you there, my blue-eyed brownette, smiling back at me.
The way I feel about this is relaxed, calmed and soothed. Relaxed is the strongest feeling. You relax me. I think that is the best way to put it. You used to be my number one source of stress. No longer. Now you are my number one source of stress-relief!
It feels like the relaxing feeling you have on a cool summer evening, when you sit out on a verdant hillside, watching the sun go down, and seeing the stars come out in the sky, while you feel the cool, soft breeze, and hear the sound of the crickets in the distance. Just hanging there, between earth and sky, being, doing nothing in particular, nowhere to go, and nothing to do. Happy and content to just be.
That is how I feel with you now. I am just happy that we are who we are. I don't want to change you. I feel and know that you don't want to change me. We are happy and content with each other. At least, I know I am with you. It is wonderful to be simply, and quietly, us.
My feeling is strong, about a 9. It is like the color of the sky at sunset, a deep golden red mixed with pink and yellow. Or the color of the fireplace when it is going good and strong, when you stare into the fire and see the embers burning a deep, pinkish red, burnt through with orange. A warm, comforting glow.
In terms of a shared experience, it is like we were when we went on our trip to California and we were bopping around the Bay Area, just having fun, eating together in cool new restaurants and the like. What a fabulous trip!
I will post now, because you just did. I love you!
Love,
Me
Be with my sweetheart and me as we communicate together. How I love her!
MDDL:
Your MEQ today was the way you calmed me down from being frustrated by Gretchen in the glasses store. You were perfect. You listened to my grousing for a good long while, and then when I became pedantic, you shut me up. I was able to go on because of your sensitivity. I love you!
The thing I most love about our relationship is the companionship of just being with you. I find it very relaxing, soothing, and satisfying to simply be in your presence. Like we were today when we were on our way to the mall. Or tonight when we were sitting in the family room together.
My favorite place to be is in the car with you, going somewhere. I love holding your hand. I love the feel of your skin against mine. I love to hear and feel your breath. I like to look over and see you there, my blue-eyed brownette, smiling back at me.
The way I feel about this is relaxed, calmed and soothed. Relaxed is the strongest feeling. You relax me. I think that is the best way to put it. You used to be my number one source of stress. No longer. Now you are my number one source of stress-relief!
It feels like the relaxing feeling you have on a cool summer evening, when you sit out on a verdant hillside, watching the sun go down, and seeing the stars come out in the sky, while you feel the cool, soft breeze, and hear the sound of the crickets in the distance. Just hanging there, between earth and sky, being, doing nothing in particular, nowhere to go, and nothing to do. Happy and content to just be.
That is how I feel with you now. I am just happy that we are who we are. I don't want to change you. I feel and know that you don't want to change me. We are happy and content with each other. At least, I know I am with you. It is wonderful to be simply, and quietly, us.
My feeling is strong, about a 9. It is like the color of the sky at sunset, a deep golden red mixed with pink and yellow. Or the color of the fireplace when it is going good and strong, when you stare into the fire and see the embers burning a deep, pinkish red, burnt through with orange. A warm, comforting glow.
In terms of a shared experience, it is like we were when we went on our trip to California and we were bopping around the Bay Area, just having fun, eating together in cool new restaurants and the like. What a fabulous trip!
I will post now, because you just did. I love you!
Love,
Me
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