Describe how I think things went in our conversation about finances? HDIFAMA?

Dear LORD:

Thank you for Ruth. Help me be a good husband to her, especially in the area of finances. Help me to overcome my tendency to procrastinate. Help me to be consistent, and diligent in the area of finances. Amen!

MDDL:

Your MEQ today was your beautiful email to me earlier this morning. I loved receiving this lovely message from you. You are my sweetheart!

The way I feel about our conversation last Saturday regarding finances is great! It was amazing to me that the LORD showed me that I was sabotaging our lives in that area, through my addiction to crisis and chaos. The first step to overcoming an addiction is to know that you have it. That was a moment of clarity for me for sure.

My father, as you know, created chaos constantly for the entire family. Anyone who was around him for any length of time became sucked into the vortex of his life. His grim shit philosophy was inescapable. The only way out was to avoid him.

Unfortunately, that was not an option for a little boy. I learned the message at an early life that "Life is grim." This message resounded deep within my soul, and scored deep ruts within it. Ever since then, I have been prone to periods of desperation and instability in my life.

I need to realize that life is not grim. Life is good. Life is wonderful. Life is a pleasure. Life is glorious. Especially for one so blessed as to be married to you!

We are actually doing very well. We have some challenges to overcome. But we are making rapid progress. Your car situation is being resolved. We have a way to pay off our credit cards which will not bankrupt us. I have a way to make extra income. I am finding new avenues for employment which may become quite rewarding, both financially and in other ways.

So, all things considered, things could be far worse. I need to remember that. Life is not grim, and I do not have to make it such. We can be happy. We can have joy.

The way I feel about this conversation is similar to the way I felt when I had my conversation with Bob in November. It was a lightening, a release of a burden. It felt like I had been set free.

Freedom. What a wonderful thing.

I love you.

Love,
Me