What is my vision for our future together? HDIFAMA?

Dear LORD:

Thank you that we are taking time to dialog today. It is so important. Please help my sweetheart to like this question and enjoy dialogging on it.

MDDL:

Your MEQ today was your wrestling with the issue of Samuel moving back home and putting your thoughts down on paper. That was great in that it helped me to get in touch with my feelings on the issue as well. Thank you for being so proactive in this way.

My vision for our future together is for me to get out of the IT business and for us to go into some other form of business together, possibly in the food service business or in exercise and health. I would love to become a yoga instructor for example. I know that I am still at a very low level, but yoga has done more for my health than anything else I have tried so far. I have always believed that the thing that you should do for a living is the thing which has transformed your own life. So, for example, getting into Mannatech would have been a natural if it had actually worked. I understand now very well why it did not work, having gone through the process I have gone through. (It is, after all, a dead processed food.) Now I see clearly that there is no shortcut to eating real food (in the Michael Pollen sense of the word), and doing the real work of stress reduction, relaxation, and spiritual transformation.

I guess my current vision would be for us to start a yoga studio which is combined with a vegan health oriented restaurant. Feeding the body, soul and spirit in other words. Your getting involved with ACC and the culinary arts degree program is a real natural for this. That is one reason why I am so excited about that move on your part, and want to support it in any way that I can. For example, you are not going to hear any push back from me on your need to attend classes or spend time doing your online training. I think it is totally wonderful that you are pursuing your dream, and if it fits into my vision as well, so be it. Either way, I am terribly proud of you and what you are doing with your life.

As you said today, when you start a program like ACC, you figure out what your dream is. Maybe your dream will change, and undoubtedly mine will too. I think it helps to know that it is that we are trying to do, though, even if that changes over time.

So, my vision, again, would be IOYK combined with a vegan fast food restaurant (with possibly meat and dairy options as well) in the same sort of relationship as Equinox and Soulstice Cafe. Synergistically working off each other. As I saw yesterday, folks who do yoga are also health oriented in other areas of their lives. Monica does not feed her child soda, for example. Never has, never will. They were horrified by my story of the three year old child at Retrouvialle CORE who was being fed Kool Whip directly from the tub by her obese parents.

What I want to do is to enable other folks to see what we have seen. This is my vision. To have the same results and such as we have had. To live healthy productive, stress-free lives. To find out that they can be Present in their Being without living in their ego. (Rob Bell actually talks about that as well.) In other words, to help people in every area of their lives. Holistically, not compartmentally.

This is a vision which is very big. But someone said recently that if you can achieve what your vision is in your lifetime, your vision is not big enough. This one is certainly very, very big.

The way I feel about this is energized and enthusiastic. Now that my health is finally (!!!!) turning around, I am becoming more and more jazzed by the idea of doing something in this area. While my health was declining, I was pretty hopeless and felt that I needed to focus on that. As I am beginning to become healthy again, I am aware that my creative juices are flowing. Yes! I am becoming a functional human being again. This feels really great! I want to share that with the world, and that is making me very excited.

It is a feeling of being energized and pumped. Kind of like the feeling you have when you crest a hill on your bike, when your legs are fully warmed up and pumping. When you hit the top you are like: Yes!!! Or like a feeling you have when you hit a home run and you start pumping your fist. Yes!!! Like a team that has just won a big game and they are all jumping up and down and clapping each other on the back.

It is a bright red, like a really nice sports car. Snick snick with the shifter as you climb the switch backs on a winding road with your tires squealing and the sound of the racy exhaust in you ears.

I am really really looking forward to exploring this vision with you. If we cannot do it together, I do not want to do it at all. You and me babe, all the way.

Love,
Me