If you knew you could not fail, what would you attempt to accomplish? HDIFAT?

Dear LORD:

Be with us in our marriage, intimate relationship and other areas of our life. We love you. Be with us as we go to Vintage tomorrow. Help Jeanae to connect with a church. She needs that badly. Be with our sons. Help them to see that the way they are living is no good. It leads nowhere but down the tubes. They think they are so smart but they are being so stupid. It really pisses me off, but you already know that. I don't want to mess with them anymore. At least until they wake up and get out of their insanity. Help me with my attitude. I am very frustrated with them right now. Amen!

MDDL:

Your MEQ today was telling me you love me in the car and then kissing me when we got home. It rocked my world!

If I truly knew that I could not fail I would become a spiritual teacher, similar to the work of Eckhart Tolle. I would help people in the area of their emotional and spiritual lives.

I have been so transformed by the practice of yoga and the reading that I have done in the area of my day to day life. I cannot possibly describe how amazing it is that I am able to function now in the area of my emotions and relationships. I have never felt so deeply and profoundly connected to you, to our family and to the earth.

Something similar to this happened yesterday in my conversation with Sam. I began to flow. It was amazing. I found myself simply allowing the Nooma in me to express itself.

I am not sure if this had any impact on Sam or not. But ultimately that doesn't matter. I want to speak to people who want to listen eventually. Right now, I am simply talking to anyone who will listen.

My feelings about spiritual matters are changing radically. I am on a revolutionary path. I cannot describe it any other way.

The reality of my spirit is the core conviction and understanding that I have obtained. I spent years in Christianity and later in the Local Church with people who would tell me to "turn to my spirit", but no one ever told me how, or even what my spirit was.

Now I finally understand. My spirit is my Nooma, the infinitely deep pool of stillness lying beyond the realm of thought, where I truly live. I am not my mind. I am that pool of stillness which is in the eternal Now.

This has been a process. The revelation of the eternal nature of God was a big step in that process. But I never went beyond that until recently. I knew that the church had it fundamentally wrong with respect to the nature of God and the eternal. But I never had a framework to build it upon which had an experiential basis. Something beyond that brief moment of insight that happened in my shower so long ago.

Now I have deep spiritual awakenings almost every day. If nothing else in final savasana as I lie their on the practice floor, listening to my breath, calming my mind, reaching into that deep pool of stillness, feeling my body, the aliveness awakening within it, going deep into the body.

These experiences are similar to those I have had in a few brief and rare moments in time in my Christian walk. Some of the Christian writers I have read have mentioned these moments. Rob Bell is among them. But they are regarded as rare and wondrous mountaintop experiences. What if you can actually live in a state of transformed Joy? What if you can actually live in the spirit, walking day by day in communion with the Eternal?

This is becoming my experience. It is something I am finding wonderful, and I truly want to share it with the world. If I knew I could not fail, I would find a way to become the messenger of this message to insane, dysfunctional world we find ourselves in.

The way I feel about this is transformed, brand new, reborn. Like the day I was born again on March 15, 1983, so long ago. When the color of the grass was more green, the color of the sky was more blue, the smell of a rose was more sweet, the taste of simple food was more profound and amazing. Like the nature of space and time itself had changed radically. Like I could fly, sing and dance all at the same time. It feels like a new beginning to a new life in a new world with you and me together!

The color is a bright, bright yellow, the color of sunlight on a golden, perfect day. A shared experience would be the newness of our relationship after we got back together and how everything felt new, alive and fresh again. Wow!

You have posted already so I will too.

Love,
Me