HDIF about Jeanae having a new boyfriend? DYFF.

Dear LORD:

Please be with Jeanae in this time of her life. She is being sorely tested. Help us to find out more about this young man, Mitch. Give us wisdom to continue to be Godly parents to her.

Dearest Ruth:

Your MEQ today was the loving advice you gave Jeanae. As you told me what you told her, I found myself agreeing with you perfectly. It was like you were speaking for me. That level of spiritual oneness is rare with another human being in my experience. We are truly one in Him who makes us one. I love you and treasure you always.

The way I feel about Jeanae's relationship with Mitch is complex. I would say my strongest feeling is one of apprehension and concern.

I am glad to see her happy, though. In that regard, I feel relief and gratitude that she is no longer emo. Having Jeanae be emo was getting extremely old. I would never tell anyone but you that though.

I am concerned about this young man, Mitch. He is an abused child. As you know (being an abused child yourself) the wounds of that abuse run deep. The fact that there is a lot of injustice in the situation (with Mitch being thrown in jail and all) is further aggravating. I am concerned that Mitch will hurt Jeanae or our grandchildren. I do not want that to happen.

I suppose much of these feelings are due to the fact that we do not know Mitch yet. We really need to get to know that person who is having such a profound impact on our daughter.

My feeling of concern and apprehension is like the feeling that you get when you know you are about to have a car accident. You see the other car coming, hear the squeal of the brakes, and for a few seconds you know that you are about to crash. That is really scary. True fear and apprehension occur at that point. It is aggravated if there are other family members in the car. At that point, you have real concern for them and for their safety. That is exactly how this feels right now, except the process is much more drawn out that the car accident.

If it were a color it would be black. If it were a sound it would be the sound of those squealing tires. My feeling is a very strong feeling, probably a 9 or 10 at least.

I keep learning more about this boy, and the more I learn the more concerned I get. I know we have to let Jeanae experience life and all. Maybe I just don't want to let go of Jeanae. He has more of her life right now than I do, and that is possibly threatening me under the surface. I don't know. I only know that is how I feel.

Please help me to deal with these feelings. I have been very controlled with Jeanae in how I have responded so far. I need your loving support to keep it that way.

Love,
Me